leaving

for europe in FOUR days.
paris, here i come. i got lazy with my french learning but i have been pretty busy lately

i'm too tired to care about sentence structure or spelling right now

today was insane!
mat's dad woke us up saying henry and ang have bugs!
my first thought, ugh not bed bugs again, but it was cockroaches in their appt.
which is hell but not as bad.
henry decided to leave a month early so we headed over there and moved them out in one day.
crazy shit
i get the heeby jeebies just thinking about bugs! fuckthem.

i tried fixing my sleep scheds the other day (stayed up instead of sleeping so i'd be tired enough to go to bed at a regular hour) and i went out with my mom and angie and mat's mom we bought shoes for the trip and went to olive garden it was nice to have a girls night out then we met up with mat and went to see The Kings Speech and i literally was falling in and out of sleep the whole time.
no, i did not watch the oscars today but i heard it won.

i got a new camera, it's a panasonic lumix
buncha numbers and letters in the name don't remember
i'm already way more satisfied with it than any of my previous cameras
i can't wait to actually have things to take pictures of ! i'm so sick of taking pictures of myself and my cat

i've been getting really into flickr lately
http://www.flickr.com/photos/32948979@N02/
 i just bought the pro account for a year 25 dollars
def gonna try to get my money's worth outta that i know i will

speaking of money,
UGH!
I don't know what to do about my taxes cuz the place i worked at literally changed ownership
and i don't even remember which address i gave them
i've lived in three places in the last 2 years? idk.
and when i went to planned parenthood the other day and this time instead of the usual trouble finding my chart, i'm suddenly nolonger in the waver thing? it's bad enough i have to sign up for it once a year now i gotta go online and shit. shouldn't be my problem.
way too much stress for free birth control
supposedly with this new gov we may not even get it anymore
i don't fuckin know

we went to visit my grandpa the other day that was nice
i still have to go visit my other grandma and my dad one of these weeks.
i'm a bad grandaughter

it's gonna be nice to see nicky soon
this winter's been weird without her. lol.

i feel like i'm going insane! i should probably stop drinking things with caffeine and booze in them.

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everything is beautiful
when i'm upside down in my head
i say you've got quite a heavy cup
you say it's lighter than my days
and we've had enough
i'm not listening any ways
just following other people's gaze
to old countryside view
something like tuscay or dubuque
i saw it on a cereal box
and it makes me hungry everytime i drive to iowa

i laugh so hard it makes me cry
and i'm looking into tomorrow like it's about to die


everything is crystal clear
after it's been emptied and abused
i rub my eyes and ignore mr fear

i'm so tired of these winter blues
are you listening, my dear



and i'm aching for a longing it's a feeling you can't hide from
it's a story i'm dying to tell someone
it's a road i've never driven on
just cut right through the forest
and got poison ivy

lua

You know what, I don't hate myself for my ridiculous sleep schedule. Even though it's unhealthy.
And I feel guilty waking up in the late afternoon.
I'm such a night owl.
Especially in the winter time.
I love falling asleep just when the birds start to sing.
I love all the teeny tiny red lights out my window that represent windmills.
I love all the stars.
My mind just clicks better the later it gets.
Or so it seems.

"Cause what is simple in the moonlight, by the morning never is."