what i got for kissmas :)

lynn made me this purple hoody.

 lynn  & my mother got me this coat, i feel like a movie star!

lynn got me this much needed cigarette home roller, and a buncha tobacco

much more economical, and tastes so much better!

my mother got me a water purifier, I LOVE IT! 

because I drink my body weight in water, and water bottles/jugs are a pain.

My lovely boyfriend got me a beautiful gemini charm bracelet 

and DANCE CENTRAL 2! 

Which I know I'm gonna love,

 I played the shit out of the first one.

and my own pimped out Sound of Music 

So thoughtful :)

and a brand new black microwave to match our fridge. 

angie and henry got their own place so they needed theirs back.

nicky made me a polka dot skirt,

I got lots of adorable polka dotted things 

and a cupcake tree, antique dishes, cupcake papers, elf makeup kit, spices, 

a case of hard lemonade, knives, photo paper, boots, 
an adorable little elephant i named ricardo,
 SUPER cute panties, Candies bra, fancy soaps, perfume,
VS PINK gift card :), World Market gift card!, Kohls gift card :)  

to die for coffee cups :) from world market  

i always wanna use the color that's on the bottom :(

i forgot the rest.

i love my family, they're awesome!  i love my new shit. :)

I'm so bad at blogging.

I haven't blogged since Spring?

A ton of shit went down this summer, I don't even feel like going into it. 

Now it's winter.

It's all good, but it still sucks.

I have been trying to get a job ever since it got too cold for farming.

I've filled out a billion job applications, replied to dozens of craigslist ads, and have been to two interviews.

I was kinda picky at first, cause I don't wanna get stuck in a shitty job.

Obviously, bad thing to be picky about.

By the time I get a job, it will be time to pick peas & spinach again.

Summers go by faster & faster every year.

I'm not really sure how I feel about living in West Bend, there really isn't much going on here. 

It's not bad, it's a completely safe, affordable, normal place to live. You just have to look past the franchises & conservatives. I'm okay with it. It is my hometown. Every once and awhile I hear a small plane fly over head and smile, flashing back. I grew up right next to the airport.

I need to expand on my social, educational, or work life, as soon as possible.

I am on the verge of going stir crazy.

I'm happy as a clam though, I'm so happy with Mat, and I'm so grateful for our families being so close, and supportive.  

My sleep schedule is fucked, which is no surprise. It makes it really easy to accomplish nothing, and see nobody. I can fix it whenever I want.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delayed_sleep_phase_syndrome

I love taking walks, 

I love this pussy of a winter we've been having so far, 41 degrees?? Really? 

Nicky is back in Europe. I wouldn't mind going on a journey, but I'm too much of a chicken shit for now.

So I have to wait til June for her to come back, & for me to turn 21. This is going to be a long five months. 

I don't know why I care so much. Maybe I just want an icebreaker into the social world again.

I've kinda been stuck in a rap/hip hop funk since the summertime, but every once and awhile I go to this lady's blog 

 http://laurataylor.tumblr.com/

and i like to listen to her selections of songs. and look at her photography of course.

I haven't done much for my photography. 

http://www.flickr.com/photos/32948979@N02/

I've made a couple videos.

What do I have to show for myself? 

Not much, but I'm okay with that.

bzzzz

I have been so busy! 

I've hardly had time to visit my mother or my best friend! 

It's summertime, so that means farm farm farm! 

I've been picking so much my tan lines have tan lines.

And if I'm not picking I'm at market selling. This year I've actually enjoyed market more than picking. It changes from time to time. I think it's cause I like being around people. 

lol "surgar" snap peas. 

                                                                      

So, on the 22nd my oldest sister got married in Oregon. We went out West and it was really nice there. Beautiful place. Especially with the mountains and the beaches. 

                                         

yaaay okay that was hardly a blog more like a photo feed but that's okay you get the drift.

argh

Something you love about yourself:

 I love that I don't care what people think of me. The hard times at school when I was an outsider made me stronger and made me realize i don't have to  please everybody. so now i'm free to be what i want say what i want and be happy with that. you are your own  worst critic.   

Day 1. Something you hate about yourself.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Another video

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Hellllooooo

Some annoyances of mine to start off with.

I'm noticing men are really audibly weak these days. I hate men that whine, or complain, or brag about how HARD they work or whatever. "So and so is exhausted from working for 8 whole hours fuck this such and such job " And they expect some kind of trophy or pity for doing what EVERYONE has to do to get by. No cookie for you! No! Not saying women don't do it either but since when is it ok for guys? They're supposed to be emotionless, hard core bacon-bringers.
Am I right?

I hate people who think everybody is as up to date with their facebooks. Say I add a picture of me doing something fun somewhere and then I get a comment of somebody whining to me "When did you go there, you should have called me today so I could join" Great that people want to spend time with me, but get real that was like last year!

Actually, this entire blogpost by somebody is hilarious here you go, look at it. http://graceoon.blogspot.com/2010/04/9-most-annoying-people-on-facebook.html

Supposedly they are starting an obesity-in-children awareness campeign thing on bilboards. What do I have to say about that? Hurray! One thing I am not proud to be an American for is, our ridiculously obese.
Today I was just at Famous Daves, and there was a man bigger than my entire family just sitting there. I don't wanna know what he ordered, but the portions are so big there that I could only imagine what he consumed.

This just depresses me. Stop filling your children with saturated/trans fats! I don't care if you let them stay inside playing their DS's and watching MTV. At least feed them right. Go to your local farmer's market, I will be happy to sell you fresh vegetables. 

Anyways, enough of that. 

Wisconsin drivers, you can just GFY.

There are two lanes minimum on the expressways for a certain reason. 

The left lane, is for passing. 

In most states, it is a strict law that you use it for just that.

 

In Wisconsin, people hog the left lane, going just as slow as the driver's in the right. 

Therefore, traffic doesn't flow like it should.

And it provokes dangerous driving when the impatient crazy people try to get around you.

Another word for Wisconsinites, yes it's kind of not hot out even though it's May. Is this new to you? It could still be snowing! Stop complaining about the weather, it's raining so the grass can get green and the trees can sprout their pretty little leaves. Be glad it's not snowing! 

Be happy with what you can get.

I'm so done with snow I can't even play the snowy maps in Call of Duty black ops.

Oh I am so excited for the new maps. 

But of course I'm not gonna play them until everyone else is a pro at them so I can fail even more miserably. 

I got my hair done today! Ahh feels nice.

  

I joined deviant art because two of my artistic sisters have been posting their work there and I wanted to holla at them. 

http://lauralovely.deviantart.com/

and as always, there is my flickr

http://www.flickr.com/photos/32948979@N02/