Day One!

Listening to: Neda by Airborne Toxic Event
Mood:  Distant

I haven't done this in awhile! What should we talk about?

Well, today I finally called Piggly Wiggly. I put in an application a couple days before Christmas and have been trying to get a hold of a hiring manager whenever I got the nerve to pick up the phone. 

And I got an interview! I'm either going to be a checkout girl. Beep. Or somebody in the produce department. I don't care, I really need a job. I've been unemployed since farming ended. Actually, I stopped farming pretty early this year. I just got tired. 

But I've been keeping myself amused. Video games, work out games, Netflix, house work, family matters. 

It's funny how much you find to do at home when you live out in the country. 

When I lived in the city I was always bored cause if you wanted to do something it cost money. Or you had to be 21. I'm 19. (yes, counting down til that birthday)

Anyways, I stole this from Jessie :)

Day One:

 Something you hate about yourself

Something I hate about myself? What a negative way to open.lol. I hate how contradictory I am with perfectionism. If there is something I feel like I won't be very good at, I won't do it. I won't try to succeed, because I'm scared of the outcome. For example, I am terrified to drive stick. Mat insists I should just push through the nerves. I can do it, but I don't want to do badly. It was the same way in school. I wouldn't try at all, I preferred F's over B's. I didn't want to know how smart I was. Or wasn't.

Day 1. Something you hate about yourself.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24: Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.